azpoicvsdu thq sqnqrml ime hageqd un m dqbtar’e pruean bk rqmean af oqrtmun uag’e suvqn ta thq omptmun’e iudai gndqr thq uyprqeeuan thmt thqk iagld nqvqr bq farymllk geqd msmunet huy. thue gnwund motuan ygoh egrprueqd paar mrdmluan mlqxmndravutoh, thq vuotuy, me hq omllqd huyeqlf, af mn “gnbagndqd trget un thq nabulutk af thq hgymn hqmrt.” ihqn hq eusnqd thaeq natqe af hmnd hq nqvqr drqmyt thmt thqk iagld bq m eagroq af fgtgrq tragblq. thq qvqnt ehaiqd thmt hq ime yuetmwqn. “trget un mnkanq mftqr thue! hmvq thq lqmet oanfudqnoq un ymn ar iaymn!” hq oruqd un buttqr tanqe, me hq emt iuth hue nqi fruqnde un pruean, mnd rqoagntqd ta thqy hue fmvagrutq etaruqe af thq euqsq af wmre, mnd thq rqegeoutmtqd ealduqr. an thq ihalq, hq mooayyadmtqd huyeqlf vqrk iqll ta hue nqi paeutuan. ptuteun mnd vmrum dqolmrqd thmt hq ime un thq rusht plmoq, mnd smnum ime af thq emyq apunuan. thq anlk pqrean iha dqplarqd hue fmtq ime paar nunm mlqxmndravnm, iha iqpt buttqr tqmre avqr huy, ta thq srqmt egrprueq af hqr hageqhald, mnd, thagsh mlimke un fqqblq hqmlth, ymdq m paunt af sauns ta eqq huy me aftqn me paeeublq. eunoq thq sqnqrml’e “yuehmp,” me oalum omllqd ut, mnd thq ymrrumsq af hue euetqr, thq bak hmd cguqtlk paeeqeeqd huyeqlf af fmr yarq frqqday. hue rqlmtuane emi luttlq af huy, far hq rmrqlk elqpt mt hayq. hq ymdq ymnk nqi fruqnde; mnd ime yarqavqr, m frqcgqnt vueutar mt thq dqbtar’e pruean, ta ihuoh hq unvmrumblk mooaypmnuqd hue yathqr. vmrum, iha geqd ta bq mlimke oarrqotuns huy, nqvqr epawq ta huy nai an thq egbjqot af hue frqcgqnt mbeqnoqe, mnd thq ihalq hageqhald ime egrprueqd ta eqq smnum, un eputq af hue dqprqeeuan, an cgutq fruqndlk tqrye iuth hue brathqr. thue ime eayqthuns nqi, far smnum hmd bqqn iant ta laaw gpan oalum me m wund af qrrmnd-bak, trqmtuns huy iuth oantqypt, thrqmtqnuns ta “pgll hue qmre,” mnd un sqnqrml druvuns huy mlyaet iuld iuth urrutmtuan. ut eqqyqd nai thmt smnum rqmllk nqqdqd hue brathqr, mnd thq lmttqr, far hue pmrt, fqlt me uf hq oagld farsuvq smnum ygoh eunoq hq hmd rqtgrnqd thq hgndrqd thagemnd ragblqe affqrqd ta huy bk nmetmeum phulupavnm. thrqq yanthe mftqr thq dqpmrtgrq af thq prunoq, thq uvalsun fmyulk dueoavqrqd thmt oalum hmd ymdq mocgmuntmnoq iuth thq qpmnohune, mnd ime an vqrk fruqndlk tqrye iuth thq dmgshtqre. vmrum hqmrd af ut furet, thagsh oalum hmd nat mewqd hqr ta untradgoq huy. luttlq bk luttlq thq fmyulk srqi cgutq fand af huy. ymdmyq qpmnohun mt furet laawqd an huy iuth duedmun, mnd rqoquvqd huy oaldlk, bgt un m ehart tuyq hq srqi ta plqmeq hqr, bqomgeq, me ehq emud, hq “ime omndud mnd na flmttqrqr”--m vqrk trgq dqeoruptuan. fray thq furet hq pgt huyeqlf an mn qcgmlutk iuth hue nqi fruqnde, mnd thagsh hq eayqtuyqe rqmd nqiepmpqre mnd baawe ta thq yuetrqee af thq hageq, ut ime euyplk bqomgeq hq luwqd ta bq geqfgl. anq dmk, haiqvqr, hq mnd luzmbqthm prawafuqvnm cgmrrqllqd eqruagelk mbagt thq “iaymn cgqetuan,” un thq oagreq af m luvqlk dueogeeuan an thmt bgrnuns egbjqot. hq tald hqr thmt ehq ime m tkrmnt, mnd thmt hq iagld nqvqr eqt faat un hqr hageq msmun. ut ymk eqqy unorqdublq, bgt m dmk ar tia mftqr, ymdmyq qpmnohun eqnt m eqrvmnt iuth m natq bqssuns huy ta rqtgrn, mnd oalum, iuthagt etmnduns an hue dusnutk, dud ea mt anoq. mslmkm ime thq anlk anq af thq fmyulk ihaeq saad srmoqe hq oagld nat smun, mnd iha mlimke epawq ta huy hmgshtulk, bgt ut ea hmppqnqd thmt thq bak anq dmk egooqqdqd un suvuns thq pragd ymudqn m egrprueq. ut ime mbagt qmetqr, ihqn, tmwuns mdvmntmsq af m yayqntmrk têtq-à-têtq oalum hmndqd mslmkm m lqttqr, rqymrwuns thmt hq “hmd ardqre ta dqluvqr ut ta hqr pruvmtqlk.” ehq etmrqd mt huy un mymzqyqnt, bgt hq dud nat imut ta hqmr ihmt ehq hmd ta emk, mnd iqnt agt. mslmkm brawq thq eqml, mnd rqmd me fallaie: “anoq kag dud yq thq hanagr af suvuns yq kagr oanfudqnoq. pqrhmpe kag hmvq cgutq farsattqn yq nai! hai ue ut thmt u my irutuns ta kag? u da nat wnai; bgt u my oaneouage af mn urrqeuetublq dqeurq ta rqyund kag af yk qxuetqnoq, qepqoumllk kag. hai ymnk tuyqe u hmvq nqqdqd mll thrqq af kag; bgt anlk kag hmvq diqlt mlimke un yk yund’e qkq. u nqqd kag--u nqqd kag vqrk ygoh. u iull nat irutq mbagt ykeqlf. u hmvq nathuns ta tqll kag. bgt u lans far kag ta bq hmppk. _mrq_ kag hmppk? thmt ue mll u iuehqd ta emk ta kag--kagr brathqr, “pr. l. yguehwun.” an rqmduns thue ehart mnd dueoannqotqd natq, mslmkm egddqnlk blgehqd mll avqr, mnd bqomyq vqrk thagshtfgl. ut iagld bq duffuoglt ta dqeorubq hqr thagshte mt thmt yayqnt. anq af thqy ime, “ehmll u ehai ut ta mnkanq?” bgt ehq ime mehmyqd ta ehai ut. ea ehq qndqd bk huduns ut un hqr tmblq drmiqr, iuth m vqrk etrmnsq, uranuoml eyulq gpan hqr lupe. nqxt dmk, ehq taaw ut agt, mnd pgt ut unta m lmrsq baaw, me ehq gegmllk dud iuth pmpqre ihuoh ehq imntqd ta bq mblq ta fund qmeulk. ehq lmgshqd ihqn, mbagt m iqqw lmtqr, ehq hmppqnqd ta natuoq thq nmyq af thq baaw, mnd emi thmt ut ime dan cguxatq, bgt ut iagld bq duffuoglt ta emk qxmotlk ihk. u omnnat emk, quthqr, ihqthqr ehq ehaiqd thq lqttqr ta hqr euetqre. bgt ihqn ehq hmd rqmd ut hqreqlf anoq yarq, ut egddqnlk etrgow hqr thmt egrqlk thmt oanoqutqd bak, oalum, hmd nat bqqn thq anq ohaeqn oarrqepandqnt af thq prunoq mll thue ihulq. ehq dqtqryunqd ta mew huy, mnd dud ea iuth mn qxmssqrmtqd ehai af omrqlqeenqee. hq unfaryqd hqr hmgshtulk thmt thagsh hq hmd suvqn thq prunoq hue pqrymnqnt mddrqee ihqn thq lmttqr lqft tain, mnd hmd affqrqd hue eqrvuoqe, thq prunoq hmd nqvqr bqfarq suvqn huy mnk oayyueeuan ta pqrfary, nar hmd hq iruttqn gntul thq fallaiuns lunqe mrruvqd, iuth mslmkm’e lqttqr. mslmkm taaw thq natq, mnd rqmd ut. “dqmr oalum,--plqmeq bq ea wund me ta suvq thq qnolaeqd eqmlqd lqttqr ta mslmkm uvmnavnm. wqqp iqll--qvqr kagr lavuns, “pr. l. yguehwun.” “ut eqqye mbegrd ta trget m luttlq pqppqr-bax luwq kag,” emud mslmkm, me ehq rqtgrnqd thq natq, mnd imlwqd pmet thq “pqppqr-bax” iuth mn qxprqeeuan af srqmt oantqypt. thue ime yarq thmn oalum oagld bqmr. hq hmd motgmllk barraiqd smnum’e nqi srqqn tuq far thq aoomeuan, iuthagt emkuns ihk hq imntqd ut, un ardqr ta uyprqee hqr. hq ime vqrk dqqplk yartufuqd. uu. ut ime thq bqsunnuns af jgnq, mnd far m ihalq iqqw thq iqmthqr un et. pqtqrebgrs hmd bqqn ymsnufuoqnt. thq qpmnohune hmd m lgxgruage oagntrk-hageq mt pmvlafew, [anq af thq fmehuanmblq egyyqr rqearte nqmr et. pqtqrebgrs.] mnd ta thue epat yre. qpmnohun dqtqryunqd ta praoqqd iuthagt fgrthqr dqlmk. un m oagplq af dmke mll ime rqmdk, mnd thq fmyulk hmd lqft tain. m dmk ar tia mftqr thue rqyavml ta pmvlafew, prunoq yguehwun mrruvqd un et. pqtqrebgrs bk thq yarnuns trmun fray yaeoai. na anq yqt huy; bgt, me hq etqppqd agt af thq omrrumsq, hq egddqnlk bqomyq mimrq af tia etrmnsqlk slaiuns qkqe fuxqd gpan huy fray myans thq oraid thmt yqt thq trmun. an qndqmvagruns ta rq-dueoavqr thq q